In past blog sites I wrote about random funny stories or my process with the Lord, but I started this page while recovering from narcissistic and sociopathic abuse. add a review Rate Podcast Play Apps List Bookmark Share Contact This Podcast I froze and watched as he swiftly closed it with a few keystrokes, his face expressionless. Listen on Apple Podcasts Requires subscription and macOS 11.4 or higher When you decide to publish (or share your story in any public way), what was once personal and private becomes open for discussion. (Opus. Found her IG. Its a beautiful song, but it isnt on my short list of repeated favorites. Pretty dang quickly. Sara begins to uncover more about her Fiance. Ive wondered if its an affront to His design when Christians continually refer to themselves and the church as wretched or even sinners saved by grace. (Here we go! ! instead of Oh Happy Day or something. Often times, this season of transition and healing can feel like punishment for doing the right thing. Nothing to make an escape outwardly justifiable to the public. Our hearts. I closed the door and sat down, turning the fan and faucet on so he wouldnt hear me crying and praying. Popular shows today. It took an abusive relationship to say fuck what my family thinks. Holding on to hope, whether for their spouse or for the sake of their kids, many stay. It was just a misunderstanding! Charts. And then support her when she needs to get away for this nutball. I remember my piano instructor taking me so far beyond what I thought a piece could possibly require from a pianists hands and brain. Press question mark to learn the rest of the keyboard shortcuts. I was simply drawn to it. It happens to have twists that make for great listening, which only gets it to more ears that might need to hear it. He said once or twice that he wanted our house to be an alcohol free home. He would set new rules, but change them when he pleased, often joking about my wine problem.. I remember being thoroughly convinced of my incapability, frustrated to the point of tears when my music teachers wouldnt believe my arguments. Weve been stretched thin, poked, prodded, pushed, provoked but not brought to our knees as a whole. Jesus said to approach Him as children do. When Sara Lewis shared her story on a podcast, she didnt think of herself as brave. But when her story went viral, she quickly learned what it meant to be in the spotlight. Scripture says we were crucified with Christ and are new creations. (@SpaceandPurpose) Its very real. The first season deals with a young woman named Sara who was in engaged to a man who she later found out was not who he claimed to be. Their stories will be told in an episodic format meaning more inspiring stories and less cliffhangers. As the numbness wears off and Im pulling old files to compile my story, I read texts with clear eyes. I thought so too but upon checking this isn't the case. *Content warning: Substance Use Disorder, emotional abuse, sexual assault, suicidal ideation, workplace abuse. Some patterns of abuse possibly even before Dick was on the scene. Soon after I get that thing, I go on my merry way and get busy. Their pain is still painted in subtle strokes across their social media posts. Choosing peace that blatantly opposes the storm around them. A docuseries podcast about the discovery, trauma and recovery of being engaged to a sociopath. Especially women. My countenance fell and everything shifted. What will we attempt when we no longer see our lack, but His potential? I literally came on here looking for someone else to validate my feelings on this - thank you! *Sources: Yahoo News: Womans boyfriend claimed to be an FBI agent, but she felt something was off: 'I cant answer that', In The Know, December 19, 2022: https://www.yahoo.com/lifestyle/womans-boyfriend-claimed-to-be-an-fbi-agent-but-she-felt-something-was-off-232932588.html Jenna Jeans Tik Tok: @JennaJean8 https://www.tiktok.com/@jennajean8/video/7171129904665218350 For free and confidential resources, please visit: somethingwaswrong.com/resources S15 Artwork by the amazing Sara Stewart @GreaterThanOkay - Instagram.com/greaterthanokayTo purchase SWW merch, please visit: represent.com/store/somethingwaswrong. Truth broke walls I couldnt scale and I will never turn away from it nor forget its power to rescue. Just started #SomethingWasWrong season 5, & it's people sharing their experiences from toxic churches/modern Christian cults& more & more I'm feeling led to write a book about my own 5-year journey in what was essentially a cult, how it damaged me, & how I finally broke free. Rosierowe 4 yr. ago. Better to go unnoticed than not measure up. Your preferences, feelings, quirks, looks, secrets, weaknesses, strengths they all matter. My sin was very subtly (but constantly) pointed out as time went on not to keep me at the feet of Jesus, but to keep me confused and feeling small compared to the kind person calling it out. (What would I have ever done without their helpful insight into my weaknesses?) He would shed actual tears when we would sit together watching movies or just cuddling on the couch, and I would think geez how damaged are you that this moment means this much? Something in my gut turned. Amazing how long it took for the truth to sink in! Need I share more lies, though? Just when I thought Id pulled everything I could from a single passage, shed tell me I was cutting a note short and to let it breathe. It can start to manifest as headaches, aches and pains, fatigue, a lowered immune system, etc. There are days Im content in that, and days I just want it to look different and throw a grownup fit. I had been slowly and systematically brainwashed over several months to question my reality and believe I was a piece of work, so there was a lot of repair that needed to happen. It was a miraculous instance of God opening the eyes of one of His own whod been deceived into choosing a dangerous situation. Her family is AWFUL!! Something Was Wrong is an immersive docuseries podcast about the discovery, trauma, and recovery from emotionally (and otherwise) abusive relationships. The Something Was Wrong podcast meetup/live recording last week and although we had no idea what to expect, it was incredible. I was born in Colorado and am very thankful to call Denver home with my wife & dog. Christian friends, were not being spoon-fed anymore. He responds. In todays episode, I interview Holistic Psychotherapist, Isaac Smith, MAT, LCSW, NTP to discuss why leaving an abusive relationship safely is important, the cycle of domestic abuse, creating a safety plan, resources available to all, and how others can best support those in an abusive relationship. Responded as if I could do no wrong because he was in awe of everything. Something Was Wrong is an Iris Award-winning true-crime docuseries about the discovery, trauma, and recovery from shocking life events and abusive relationships. reviewed: Something Was Wrong Love the podcast. I grabbed the bags from the car, crossed the parking lot to greet him while my roommate continued on into the house, and when I saw his posture I paused. Let me recklessly forget about my weakness as my awareness of Your strength grows. For free and confidential resources, please visit: somethingwaswrong.com/resourcesS15 Artwork by the amazing Sara Stewart @GreaterThanOkay - Instagram.com/greaterthanokayTo purchase SWW merch, please visit: represent.com/store/somethingwaswrongSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. ), We have felt like square pegs in round holes because the fit didnt exist until now. As part of this mission, r/podcasts is curated to promote respectful and on-topic discussions. (Anyone else get phrases or words rather than songs stuck in their heads?) A woman was praying for me shortly after I called off my wedding and she kept repeating, Hope is NOT deferred., Never. 12/22/2022. Y'all are insane. When I tried to explain that I tempered my excitement after noticing he seemed down and I didnt want to be insensitive, he shook his head like I was being silly and trying to cover something he could see right through. Me. And having been set free from sin, and having become slaves of God -Rom 6:22. The more conversations Im having with people in similar situations, the more amazed I am by their resiliency and strength. Until the week before her wedding when she learned - something was. At 40, I have introduced only my abusive ex/father of my child and now partner to only my mom and aunt. ), (There were too many blinders on at that point to recognize that life will ALWAYS throw curveballs testing the patience of myself and the person Im with. *Content warning: sexual, physical and emotional violence involving children, childhood abuse, sexual abuse of a child, rape, child sex abuse materials, human trafficking, and suicide. If we didnt hear that message at crucial times from a parent or similar figure, well seek it elsewhere. Thats whats happening. Its a lighthearted nightmare in here, weirdos! It was take me back to the beginning. I wasnt sure why. Eight days out, I was ready to move forward at full speed, thinking a wedding was the answer to serious problems. That type of restionship is one that I would run from solely because of her family. It wont always be super serious around here. The excitement quickly faded when unexpected flashbacks accompanied the unboxing of last winters clothes, and with each cooler day, I started digging my heels into the ground to slow down the deja vus invading at random times. Was recently suggested the podcast Something was Wrong by a good friend, and wow is it GOOD! That SAME song always, is so indescribably bad. Im thankful for this past year, because my God is quickly turning a dark time completely around into something beautiful. I was straightforward and told him exactly what I wrote at the beginning of this paragraph so that he could understand why his words hurt me so badly. Nothing to fear, because fear cant coexist with perfect Love. Without it, as Scripture says, we die out. like seriously awful. Follow Sara Lewis on Instagram@SpaceandPurposeCheck out Saras Blogspaceandpurpose.comSomething Was Wrong Podcast, featuring Saras story. Seeing our potential and discovering what were truly capable of. One of many is a phrase that loves to sneak its way in if I dont fight it. 64.2k Followers, 178 Following, 52 Posts - See Instagram photos and videos from Something Was Wrong Podcast (@somethingwaswrongpodcast) Enough to let go and be free. It wasnt until hours later, at dinner (I still remember the really cool Asian restaurant we discovered in Oakland), that he tilted his head like a parent would toward a child and said, When are you going to talk to me about what you saw earlier today? The weirdest conversation proceeded. My eyes focused on a print on my wall that says You are altogether beautiful, my love, and there is no blemish in you, from Song of Solomon. https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. I didn't wait until everything was perfect to go live, and since then I've thrown my hands up and let it roll. You have all these moving parts literally every digit is moving but dont ever allow fingers 2 and 5 to physically lift from the keys while playing because those notes are tied. (You will get caught.) Why? In private, (more as time went on), there was a heaviness or something often weighing him down that I felt the need to support. Ad-free epis That the ground beneath our feet doesnt feel the same and were somehow powerless against it? Regardless of sexual orientation or life goals, I think women want to know if they are needed and desired while simply being. 3 for any nerds curious.) What was wrong, and how could I fix it? Not everyone fit this mold, but highschool me received it this way.) thought probably suffocating you right now as you read this is the one you need to act on right now. They only met the abuser because I was pregnant. Something Was Wrong is an award winning docuseries podcast about the discovery, trauma and recovery of being engaged to a sociopath. That the ground beneath our feet doesnt feel the same and were somehow powerless against it? Amy shares a personal story of pain, healing, survival and her search for justice. Everything is fine., (I watched Jane the Virgin obsessively for multiple reasons, a big one being her developing her identity as a fiction writer.). However, this is my playground and Im honored to have your eyes as guests for a few moments.) Shes into Young Living. Season 7. Air is huge. Like Im glad they were supportive since it helped her get out of the relationship but also.. give her some space! He sees farther than we do. I went about my bachelorette party the next day ready to have fun, with no idea that Sunday held the exposure of massive lies. Ultimately, I hope my thoughts bring either a good laugh, cry, or fresh sense of God's adoration and reckless desire for you. It wreaks havoc on your mind, emotions and even your physical body. Something Was Wrong is an Iris Award-winning true-crime docuseries about the discovery, trauma, and recovery from shocking life events and abusive relationships. Is it time yet? But she is, self admittedly, in a bubble when it comes to her upbringing and her family. Pretty dang quickly. Recommended by us. When it was clear we were spiraling out of control, in His consistency God abided by His own rules and sent someone without sin to shed blood for us, so we wouldnt have to keep sacrificing flawless animals the Old Testament way to approach Him. May 1, 2021 3:47pm. I have these conversations with my close friends all the TIME about what God is showing us, and what we feel Hes doing but I dont vocalize it on a more public platform because I have a diverse friend group and never want to alienate those who think and feel differently than I do. (If girls were single, they were waiting. I was preparing to become the helpmeet my dream guy was looking for, instead of calling it living my dang life.). Then it uses those keys to wreak havoc where trust was carefully built. We went about our work date, my heart racing and mind running wild. If you're sensitive to the topic of abuse, I would skip it. My exs crocodile tears and contorted face felt disproportionate to the moment and the amount they were giving. Podcast Discovery . Its insidious and the cost is incredibly high. ), Through that book, God mended me in ways I never expected and might previously have resisted had I not been desperate for something to tell me who I really was and why all of me was important. Its very real.). Until one week before their wedding when she learned - something was wrong. Yes, were imperfect and still sinning because we live in a conflicted world, but we are no longer slaves to it. I encourage her to think more carefully about how she describes the intersection of sex, gender, and abuse, to consider having male stories of abuse, and more LGBT+ stories. 21-01-2019. If its His word, He will back it and ensure it doesnt return empty. (Imagine that going down in 2018. As my faithful poet Chris Martin says, Lights will guide you home.. Dick is an abuser -- but also isn't Sara's family dynamic a bit intense? S1 E7: We're Done, I'm Running, You're Insane, S1 E9: Unencumbered by the Weight of Women. If they trust me with something, I hold it close. He had an uncanny ability to read my thoughts and discern my feelings. Something Was Wrong A weekly True Crime, Society and Culture podcast featuring Tiffany Reese 38 people rated this podcast About Insights Pro 180 25 1 17 RATING all john.krotzer May 15th, 2022 3 Soundslikemog May 8th, 2021 3 wastefreesteffi Apr 9th, 2021 1 Load More. What then proceeded from his mouth is apparently something called Word Salad. We are not going back to normal or anything comfortably livable this time around unless we do the things we were put here to do. This discounts and erases the experiences of male victims of all ages, as well as female victims who have been abused by other females and males who have been abused by males. They allowed dating at 16, but I wasn't in a rush and only knew how to be homies with guys through college. He actually laughed, shaking his head! (Sometimes a ray of light just looks like a good lunch.). (Do you feel the spiritual side of it? I was struck by the simplicity of that simple thought and how profoundly it changed my perspective. The loosey-goosey-ness has been humbling and revealing. More and more, constant intake. A good Father does not take away to leave a permanent void. Our spirits are what reflect Him. Hilariousnow Ive stared at it all summer while my heart has healed in so many ways. Lol. But a covert does want you to feel sympathy. I just listened and I want to know too. Read More Also Listen On More Options Social Media Pages Share This Show Black Friday Deal: In the name of gratitude, enjoy 50% off our Prepare-to-Publish Self Study Discount automatically applied at checkout. In addition to believing lies about myself, I believe my fear of failure was rooted in pride. (IM SORRY JOHN & STACI I blatantly judged your book by its cover. Only when that phrase appears on page 3. This is my favorite podcast. Thats whats happening. I added much to his life. Im 1 of the ppl screaming "whats his real name? I am not licensed to diagnose, but trusty ol Google checklists for APD and Sociopathy fit my experiences nearly 100%. She was about to marry a dude that duped her into becoming friends with people that he created out of thin air, and unprovoked kicked and injured a dog. Claim and edit this page to your liking. Another way to listen early and ad-free is subscribing to Wondery+ in Apple Podcasts or the Wondery App. Dipping my toes in some frigid waters!) I walk a line with choosing to blog about my real-time process, teetering toward avoidance when that process hits a bump in the road called full clarity and the resulting fury. THE PURPOSE - 100% of profits from each garment sold are contributed to a socially conscious artist grant program. He, meets me. So.What Else? For free and confidential resources, please visit: somethingwaswrong.com/resourcesS15 Artwork by the amazing Sara Stewart @GreaterThanOkay - Instagram.com/greaterthanokayTo purchase SWW merch, please visit: represent.com/store/somethingwaswrongSee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. So when people tell me I am brave to share my story, Im realizing I dont feel brave at all because it doesnt feel like mine. Its His story of jealousy, of the lengths Hell go to leave the 99 for one. S1 E1: There Were No Red Flags. I had no frame of reference for what he meant because I was ecstatic to see him. Aww honey, you just thats not what I said! Ohhhh me. I was told this past week that when were wearing rose-colored glasses, red flags just look like flags. For those wondering and asking, I truly am doing well! . I might be crying and feeling like dead-weight a lot lately but hes MOVING for me, and juggling everything ELSE he does! A listener makes a discovery that leads Sara to final answers in her quest for the truth. Soon after I get that thing, I go on my merry way and get busy. Its taken me nearly a year to break apart and analyze every mystery, every gut-punch, every moment of confusion. Sara Gonzalez (Lewis) (@spaceandpurpose) Instagram photos and videos spaceandpurpose Follow 173 posts 20.6K followers 207 following Sara Gonzalez (Lewis) Personal blog Health, beauty, funny things Coming January '23: the S&P Podcast! Emotions came but I shoved them down and started thinking through examples he might be referring to. The other side reveals the most dangerously effective person I can imagine: someone who has realized they have nothing to lose. Suns finally out, am I right?, Me: Oh! The busyness is all valid things like 3 jobs, a consistent fitness routine, family relationships, etc but before I know it, 3 weeks have gone by and the person that blessed me with these jobs and incredible community (literally everything I was just asking Him for) hasnt heard from me and thats, This is often why I believe He allows hardship- not that He is the direct cause of bad or difficult times, but His nearness is undeniably different when were in pain and we. Most of them are a bit extra IMO, lol. He doesnt want a casual connection- He wants our fire, our very worst AND best. Outwardly hes a good person, Ive heard or read multiple times. So how quickly did I choose other things once church was canceled? Now is not the time to wait for one to reveal itself- you probably know exactly what it is, and that surely not that thought probably suffocating you right now as you read this is the one you need to act on right now. A cornered narcissist will spin you up in so many words that youll forget the origin of the conversation, forget your own point, and somehow end up at fault for something you still dont understand. Some of my darkest days have been marked by a unique sense of His presence I dont feel other times. It has nothing to do with exposing him as a person, but everything to do with re-constructing my own sense of reality, up from down, right from wrong. For free and confidential resources, please visit: somethingwaswrong.com/resourcesSources:https://www.rainn.org/statistics/victims-sexual-violencehttps://www.nsvrc.org/statisticshttps://www.cdc.gov/violenceprevention/sexualviolence/fastfact.htmlTo purchase SWW merch, please visit: represent.com/store/somethingwaswrongS15 Artwork by the amazing Sara Stewart @GreaterThanOkaySee Privacy Policy at https://art19.com/privacy and California Privacy Notice at https://art19.com/privacy#do-not-sell-my-info. I was constantly confused by inconsistency. Rather than bottle everything up and ruin our lovely afternoon together, I shouldve communicated better in order for him to simply explain so we could move on. The story is told on a podcast called Something Was Wrong. Stress is never an excuse for insults and back-handed compliments- those should be followed with a genuine apology. New comments cannot be posted and votes cannot be cast. Sorry not sorry, youre rigur, Just finished episode 4. 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